My POSITION BOOK----Nov20,2003

My position book

I appreciate that kind of talking to myself with state outright subjectively, because my suffering just stems from my express could’t be so carefree and deeply.

I feel my art seeking be cornered now under contemporary china’s special historical condition.My sense of duty make me shoulder the heavy responsibility of my country and my family.but my inmagination and experiment courage make me struggle out of any control to completely approach my dream state.so I just try to improve be harmonious proportion at present.I also realize my revolutional subjective,mabey it’ll be ok just insist my talking right and expand my pure land cake ,don’t need to exclude others.

But the problem is the negative person still make a fact exist that is be my consult.Only regret for me is I don’t know how to compromise with them and also don’t want to slick and sly to hide my weariness.Mabey the straightforward suit well for western society,but in traditional china be particular about intermediary and reconcile,this kind of attitude have the character of challenge and go ahead of test.

So I must try my best to practise my dream to make it became my formly believe truth.“expand my pure land ”only the practise is the standard of testing truth. So I just thirst for practise! I like express myself----like a crazy men or madman or mental lunatics talking consumptive about my exist have no alternative at this moument-----the human if not dead that will break out.in silence! I choose the latter,I must express! Express my dream and desire,my passion and inflexible!I never believe I haven’t such powerright and freedom,especially outlet my truth and ideas on the public occasion, throughtout my green true love film products and all my artworks.i don’t believe the audience will dislike to listen and to see, contrarily they want to see and think even be excitement full of sap!my works is so pure and as well extrem’s,its flighty and rash will became their light to brightern the follow way for approach the pure land then having been far away from the post-modern society’s chaos and clamour piecefully..

Also this is a pure land full of my test and enjoy! This is the desire come from men’s heart, this is the guide of human spirit,this is the origional source of inspiration,this is a pharmaceutical of revive for the materializer.my identity just have deep and profound meaningful in the wartime,it’ll be disgraceful to usurp power!because my sound and dream just simple and succinct meanwhile consideration deeply.

At present,my pain just for my opening remarks so late to waiting,my accompany so few because I need the true men with kindly heart and support,the donater with the scrifice consciouness,all of them could be my partner to cooperation and communication and then bring back the society and economic effects. God help self-help!the miracle just coming,I never stop!especially to express! I just need freedom to outlet to creat to lecture to exist to dream to complete forever with bravely and state outright subjectively!